Well, first off I want to wish you all a very Merry Christmas! I hope that it was filled with love and happiness. I was reading a friends blog about how we sometimes get selfish at the holidays and feel like we have to spend a ton to make people happy. I know that I have said it a few times, but there didn't have to be anything under my tree this year, or probably for the coming years. I got all that I wanted and stuck him in a santa hat!

For the first time in a long time, the spirit has come to my home. My family was here last night just hanging out, having some snacks and enjoying the time. That is, to me, what it should all be about. Today, I hung out with my mom and my son, took it easy and just took some time to be thankful.

My only regret is that I didn't get out to the cemetery. We started out there yesterday just to stop by my dad, but there was this woman who was in a car accident and by the time we had waited until the police arrived, Elliot was a bit fussy and tired of being in the car. While I do like to make it a point to stop out there, I know that the spirit of my dad is with us always, and I cannot wait to teach my son about what a respectful, caring and loving father he was. I hope that my son gets the traits of hard work, respect, humility, modesty and honesty that my dad had and passed on to me!

So again, I wish you all the good, love and peace that can be given to all of you, and I wish you a wonderful day!

It is so hard to believe that my little bird is just about two weeks old. What a life changing experience. It isn't tough to learn that things all of a sudden do not happen on my time, they happen on his. There are a lot of times that I am washing bottles or doing laundry, but he is sooo worth it.

People are still stopping by to meet him and say hello, and my friends have been great. Everyday is something new. I have a tough time putting him down, I just want to cuddle and hold him. It is so fun to see the new things that he learns from day to day. Like finding his thumb to suck on, or those strange baby smiles for whatever reason.

All is healing well. Due to the back surgery I had to be put all the way under so I wasn't the first to get him. My mom was. I am so glad to have the support that I do.

Hopefully today I can take the tree that has been in the stand for a couple of days and get some lights and ornaments on it. The snow hindered us yesterday, so with that being cleaned up, maybe some stuff can happen inside the house. I guess you learn to slow down and take things in because it is all so precious. I read in the paper of people who aren't taking care of their kids, or do bad things to them, and I look at my son and want to hold him closer to protect him always from the bad things. I don't understand how someone can do something so terrible to any other person...adult or child.

Christmas takes on a whole new meaning this year with this special gift....

Bored....

Yes, I am bored...I know that the standard sentence right now is to enjoy it while I can and rest, but geez. I do a little shopping for Christmas and I get kinda tired, but beyond that I have started a book, and I am watching way more T.V. than I ordinarily do. I don't like to be driving much and the ice on the sidewalks and such scares me. Goodness knows I'm kinda clumsy.

I guess tomorrow will be the teller as to when this is all going to happen. I didn't think that my back would be an issue, but the hypothesis seems to make sense. I met with the ob the other day and he was a really nice guy. I am hoping that if anything were to ever go down and I needed a doc like that, that he would take me. It appears that he more than likely will come c-section, which is fine. I don't know that the laying and the threat of a nonworking epidural is a fate I want to tempt.

Maybe today I will try to clean out my trunk. The stroller I have is gigantic...It's like a cesna for a baby.

It was strange...yesterday we ran into a woman who had a 7 week old..her sons name was Elliott. I'm not sure how it is spelled, but it was ironic. It really made me want to hold my Elliot. This has been a road of greatness, and I am so thankful for the miracle that I am about to get. It is so hard to express it. It might be that my mind and body are all jacked up, and I know I am slightly more emotional than normal, but this is my dream come true and I am excited to meet him.